She told you she loved you but you didn't take the chance. Did you not know that it was her you Wanted then? You said things were fine, everything was good. Then one day she didn't reply. No text, no call no facebook chat. You don't know what to do. And neither do I. You said you should let go, but i don't know why. Do you love her? Is she what you want? Does she make your heat skip a beat? Does she make you laugh and smile? Does she make you fell all warm inside? Did you answer yes to most of these questions? Then don't let her go. She is always going to be a part of you. Always a friend, no matter how far away. Sometimes the strongest friendship is the one thats silent. Don't give up on her, she will still be there, and when her world comes crashing down she will need you there. All your friends are stoners, (well almost all of them) You said you need to accept that. MAybe you do. MAybe you just need to talk to them. Maybe you need a break, Maybe you need new friends. You can do so much with your life, all you have to do is put your mind to it. Move away, experience the world. Do something, have a breakand enjoy your life. Don't dwell on things that could have been, because if you don't take the chance, you will never know. And if you keep on dwelling. It will eat you inside. Thats what i learnt. And as one of my best friends, you deserve the best in your life. Your kind, caring, funny and just plain AMAZING. So please, don't let it eat you inside. Do what you need to do. Sorry I can't help you much. I can only offer my advise.